DRAFT – Please do not cite 1 Dilemmas of Self-Representation and Conduct in the Field Stephen Brown This is the pre-final version and is not for citation. To cite, please consult the final published version: Stephen Brown “Dilemmas of Self-Representation and Conduct in the Field” In Chandra Lekha Sriram, John C. King, Julie A. Mertus, Olga Martín-Ortega and Johanna Herman, eds. Surviving Field Research: Working in Violent and Difficult Situations New York and London: Routledge, 2009, pp. 213-26. Introduction Researchers often forget that that while we conduct fieldwork, we are ourselves the object of other people’s research. A variety of actors are constantly gathering different types of information on us. Most directly, the people we interact with in the course of our research activities, such as interviewees and archivists, form an opinion of us that can influence our access to information. As researchers we are highly dependent on people’s goodwill and voluntary cooperation; how we present ourselves to them can thus have a significant impact on our research opportunities. At the same time, other people also collect information on us, out of professional interest or simply curiosity, ranging from fellow passengers in a mini-bus or a waiter at a restaurant to secret police. This information can circulate informally and sometimes formally, through gossip networks and possibly paid informants, in ways that we cannot control—or even track. Not all of this has a direct impact on our research, but the way we interact with people—and the way we represent ourselves—often has a significant indirect influence on our work, including on our emotional well-being. When the tables are turned on researchers and we become the object of interest, we might prefer to remain vague about our own opinions or hide our own beliefs, not to mention aspects of our personal lives. Likewise, when conducting extended fieldwork in one place, our behaviour and information we reveal outside the research context, including in our spare time, can have an impact on our ability to conduct research. In environments where information spreads quickly, being seen, for instance, socializing with one particular group of actors or having a more intimate relationship with an individual can compromise our “reputation” as a serious and unbiased (or sympathetic) researcher. Not socializing at all might not be sustainable and moreover projects another image that can be interpreted negatively as well. Furthermore, what we reveal in a seemingly innocent or private context can circulate, at times inaccurately, and do harm to our research relationships and even our sense of security. Examples include cohabitation or having children out of wedlock; being gay, lesbian or bisexual; or belonging to a specific religious group