Lives Stories Don’t Tell: Exploring
the Untold in Autobiographies
JUDY SHARKEY
University of New Hampshire
Durham, New Hampshire, USA
ABSTRACT
Over the last 25 years, autobiography has gained increasing epistemological and
methodological popularity and legitimacy in teacher education. Although this
trend has opened up valuable new lines of inquiry, it has not been unproblematic.
We have moved beyond the romantic, uncritical celebration of stories to the recog-
nition of autobiographies as complex political texts that, when not open to inquiry
and contextual analysis, can reinforce oppressive dominant ideologies. The teacher
essay presented here, drawing on the growing field of self-study in teacher educa-
tion, examines the role of particular social and political contexts in the production
of autobiographies but also challenges teachers and teacher-educators to reflect on
their roles in creating the contexts that affect autobiographical texts. The heart of
the article is a narrative analysis of two specific incidents of self-censorship that
occurred in teacher-education classrooms located in communities with undercur-
rents of anti-Semitism and homophobia. In exploring these instances of censor-
ship, I question how censoring my sexual identity in an autobiography shared with
my methods students may have been linked to one of my students censoring her
Jewish identity in her autobiography. I argue that we can use our own experiences
of self-censorship to question the kinds of pedagogical spaces we help create and
sustain, an important issue in understanding how difference is denied or acknowl-
edged in classroom spaces. Recommendations include: analyzing and critiquing
the sociopolitical contexts in which classrooms are embedded (e.g., school and
community); broadening the autobiographical frame to include more listening and
attending to what students share outside of written texts; and recognizing silence
not as a deficit of language but as a “counterlanguage” (Lewis, 1993) and as a
“strategic suspension” (Hurtado, 1996) that can lead to political action.
The instructor said,
Go home and write
a page tonight.
And let that page come out of you—
then, it will be true.
I wonder if it’s that simple?
—Langston Hughes
© 2004 by The Ontario Institute for Studies in Education of the University of Toronto.
Curriculum Inquiry 34:4 (2004)
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